ADDICTION AND DEPRESSION A LIVING HELL

Recently i was taking norco for arthritis in my back due to nothing else worked.After several months i would take 1 and a half,then 2 at a time due to it was not working,after awhile when i tryed to stop taking them the withdrawals was so bad that i would take more of them to stop the withdrawals,it got to where i was taking 5 or 6 at a time because the withdrawls was so bad.When i realised what was happening i sunk so low into depression that i was lost.Between being trapped by the cycle of withdrawls and depression was hell,i dont wish that on anyone,mine was so bad i compare it to torrets syndrome,thats how bad my shaking,restlessness got i actually thought about killing myself.Then me and my great wife was going to work i told her,i asked her to go to my dr with me and make sure i told him,yesterday i did,he didnt look down on me,he said he was sorry for me going through this.
There really aint nothing to help the withdrawals,theres whatthey call RAPID DETOX,where you go to the hospital and they put you to sleep for 12-16 hours and pump you with drugs to speed up the withdrawals,but the patient has convulsions,throwing up in their sleep some has died.
Then there is methadone,which is not a narcotic technically,it actually binds to your brain so you cant get the high from narcotics,thats the treatment i chose.
My heart goes out to who has ever or is going through that,i know what it feels like,people say its willpower,its not that simple,the withdrawls are painfull ,exhausting,scary.
I felt like dying yesterday,if it was not for my loving wife and my great dr i would have killed myself yesterday,its a rough thing to go through,if you are going through it there is treatments out there to get past withdrawls,dont be ashamed,i hope i can help one person to find the courage to get help,thanks to my wife ,my dr,they gave me the courage,i hope you find it to.